Adoption?

Todd and I had known since shortly after we married that we wanted to adopt. The Lord had put that desire in both of our hearts. At our church in Louisville we were so blessed to be surrounded by MANY families who had and were in the process of adopting. This was encouraging to us and really helped show us how real it could be. We learned much about the process and the Lord also taught our hearts much about adoption . . . adoption of orphans, but also how we are truly orphans and God has adopted us into His family - as believers we are children of the most high God! Although we knew that we wanted to adopt we did not know when. We had no idea that after several years I would not get pregnant. Not so much in our plan, but how silly are we to plan when there is a Sovereign God that is Lord of our lives. Rather than pursuing infertility treatments to try and conceive we both felt that God was leading us to adopt. We did not know where from, how we would pay for it, when, or even really where to begin. We just knew that was where God was leading us. We sought out primarily international adoption at first, but door after door seemed to close. Through all of this there were many tears. Two or three roller coaster rides of finding out about children we thought we would be able to adopt but fell through. We did trust that God was sovereign through all of it . . . that was not always easy. And often I would get frustrated with myself for being so frustrated with everything. We watched as many friends got pregnant and had children, and were very excited for them, but still our hearts were broken as we longed for children of our own. Little did we know what little blessings the Lord had for us . . . .